khairul syuhaidah zainal

Saturday, January 3

Last call baby, last call.


Its 6.45am and i was awakened up by sounds of something. And it reminds me about my nightmare tht i just had bfore. The last thing u want to happen to urself are when your exboyriend embrassing urself on social networks posting wht shudnt be posting (cam aku je yg buat on reality? Lol) but lagi teruk on wht i posted on ig .Ok lah tbh tu mmg not exactly what happen but i dreamed bout tht how scary was that shit

Pastu cam bodoh takleh tidur haha

2nd January 2015, the end of relationship between me and danial. Danial faris. Mohamad danial faris bin sanawi. 2years gap between us showed so many reasons why u shudnt and why u shud date an older woman than u. 

Kali ni break without any presence of third person. Kitorang break so many times it's uncountable but tahlah maybe sbb we need each other and my love towards him tak pernah lak nk hilang aku pun tak paham ah dgn myself. 

I want to meet him so bad. Sbb apa yg aku nmpak, bila kitorang tak jumpa, chance untuk break tu sgt la tinggi bcs we r not seeing each other everyday. Yes fuck you distance problem-

He said - 'no more getback after this ok, jgn gedik gedik dgn aku mintak getback balik' -- ouch!

Haha its okay, i know how u feel. Mesti cam dh nyirap ngan aku bcs asyik couple -break-couple-break hm cam break kete lak. 

Fuck im really bad in relationship doh. Cant doing things right , more like relationshit--- but hey, this time i didnt cheat on anyone! (Last time i cheated on my ex bf- sekali tiga sial aku couple bapak sakai)

Thanks for everything (if u know wht i mean) all ur memories, money, efforts, time, energy tht had be given to/on me. Tbh, the best relationship i ever had in my whole life-- serius do ni gentle tak tipu

Wish u to have a good journey in 2015 and u gonna get ur own bike real soon (u promise to let me have a ride on it but we  already over so nevermind im okay with that heh) 

Anddd i freakingly wish u have a better yet fucking bright future ahead bcs i know u r pretty intelligent (as i know lah) and i hope u can be a pilot at the same time jadi ceo kfc or wtv u want. Banggakan mummy daddy (alahai poyo nye shu)

Andddddd im wishing u to have/choose/pick the better girl than me im sure u can do tht. Love her as hard as u can. Dont let she sad by her own. Accepts all her flaws/defects bcs nobody is perfect. Change her into a better person. Dont make mistakes like wht we used to do in previous 2014. 

Remember me in ur doa (carpppppppp) hahahaha

Ok. My azam this year nk single for the whole year (in shaa allah) Tp en, ada jodoh tak kemana :)

Goodbye sayang ucuk acam hap hap hap weh the fuck do shu hahahaha


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